RANT

I wish I could close my eyes and open them to find all my responsibilities disappear. 

All I did was math today and devoting so much time as well, I'm certain I won't get anywhere near what I deserve. 

Well, the other subjects, I haven't even started them yet, I'm far from even thinking of passing in them. The only thing that seems better than giving the exams is getting a life threatening disease. Looking back, it all seems to have gone so fast but the future seems like a snail walking in circles carrying weight multiple times itself. 

Every time I get a mail, I rush to open it with crossed fingers hoping its an acceptance mail from a university to which I can just fly and leave all if this behind as soon as possible. 

Kenway ❤️

I very well know how socially awkward I am and I'm not afraid to show it! 

During my absolutely amazing time at the SMFA in Boston in June, I'd enrolled for the photography class and they were all M&C people there. Sigh, not Mac and Cheese, but Macintosh and Canon. 

Carrying the Nikon, which was not even mine, I was asked to use the Canon camera for the duration of the class. 

Exist.‏

The question returns, hitting harder this time around. Why do you exist? 

Dream or a premonition?‏

Woke up at like 5 am this morning grasping for water.
Probably cold or dry, no idea, but i had the most vivid dream still on my mind then. 
Factually, your dreams are stored in your mind for a maximum of 10 minutes, however, I can distinctly recollect every moment. 
Getting a 46 percent in my boards, committing suicide, and no one caring.

Helplessness

The state of helplessness hits me every time I wake up. From the annoying people around me to the depressing and now monotonous surroundings.