Dream or a premonition?‏

Woke up at like 5 am this morning grasping for water.
Probably cold or dry, no idea, but i had the most vivid dream still on my mind then. 
Factually, your dreams are stored in your mind for a maximum of 10 minutes, however, I can distinctly recollect every moment. 
Getting a 46 percent in my boards, committing suicide, and no one caring.

Helplessness

The state of helplessness hits me every time I wake up. From the annoying people around me to the depressing and now monotonous surroundings. 

AWOL!

So I was AWOL from my blog for quite a long time, however, I was still writing and now will be publishing an array of blogs!

LYF.

My life-
its running,
out of control.

Stop it!
Pause it!
Rewind it?

Miss the past-
easiness,
fearless.

No burdens,
or responsibilities
nor constraints.

Simplicity,
joy,
death - AHOY!

PARANOIA.

Then the paranoia strikes
It turns me against all my likes
My thoughts seem surrounded by bleak dykes
All my fears run in, in extreme hikes

Am I scared of them?
Can I stop them before they stem?

I remain answerless
I sit stateless

My surroundings start to blur
The demons begin to slur

My body, soul and mind tremble
As my phobias begin to assemble
What do I start to resemble?
An apparition. I think I’m going to tumble

Down the trap laid by my mind
I need a quietus - the only way to unwind.